Love & Hate

You pinch my cheeks until they're bright red,

Fill my hat until it's filled with grass and paper

then dump it all on my head in one swish. 

But when all eyes are off us, 

You brush off the leaves out of my hat,

and tuck the stray strands of hair away from my face.

How long will we act like this?

We pull faces at each other during class,

draw in each other's books whenever no ones looking.

But when the eyes are back on us we change,

once again fly the insults and the broken pieces of grass back in our faces.

You sing songs to me behind the classrooms. 

Smile at me like I'm the sun.

Piggy-back me and spin me around until everything blurs into one. 

And I'd close my eyes...To feel the lightest pressure on my cheek.

I would open my eyes to see you grinning at me,

your eyes sparking mischievously at me.

Will there be a day when we can smile in front of others?

When we can hold hands...

When we can be together?

Played

I liked you. We were together but did you ever say you loved me back?

I devoted myself to you until I only existed to serve you. You kept me as your rebound, someone who you never really cared about. I was happy to keep only a minute of your attention until she came along and swept you around. Wrapped around her little finger. 

What did I do to deserve this? Why do we love only to get hurt in the end?

 

Now...I can only embrace the darkness that has taken over my broken heart.