her words repeating over and over in my head,
"Oh yeah I forgot to tell you, I'm the one dating him now."
I look over and catch his gaze, he holds contact for a second and turns his face away. The bell rings and I slowly walk back to my class alone. I take a seat at the back where I always sit and see him coming in just as the bell sounds the last ring.
He walks towards the seat next to me mine where he always sits but midway he changes his mind and sits with another. I replace my shocked face with one of a poker and blink rapidly as the tears start to leak.
I remember a while back where he promised never to hurt me, to always love me and to stay by my side as I lay in his arms under the cherry blossom tree.
But now hurt, unloved and alone.
I try and focus on the lesson but my thoughts stray. Why? I told myself to get over him. That it would be impossible to ever tell jokes while teasing each other now. Or stealing each other's lunch while calling each other fat.
I felt like crawling into a hole, a hole where no one could find me nor save me. Where it would be pitch black and I would drown in my sorrow one day after another. I want to whisper to my prince to save me, to help me end this pain. But my prince has already given up on me and found another princess to protect.
So here I lay. In the D A R K N E S S
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