Just words

You said you'd change your bad ways, 

That you would spend more time with me. 

But in the end you cracked, 

Not everything went perfect between us,

So he disappeared somewhere else taking my heart in return for broken promises and lies. 

"Don't leave"

He turned back to look at me with a watery smile. He nodded once in my direction before taking a step out the door, and out of my life. 

I see him everywhere even though he isn't here. The same shade coloured hair, chocolate eyes, the dimple in your right cheek. 

Your laugh can still be heard in the back of my mind. You're haunting my dreams, my mind, my heart. 

"You said move on, where do I go?"

You left without a trace taking my heart with you. The hole inside me burns every time I think of you. Tears leak without me realising until they're running down my face. 

I wonder if he thinks of me as much as I think of him. I wonder if he has found someone to take my place. Someone who you laugh along with when you see something funny. Someone you wrap your arms around when it's chilly. Someone you cuddle up to in a movie. 

Sometimes I wish I had a time machine and stopped you from going. Tried to prevent him from leaving. But he is long gone and I have tried to move on, tried to mend my heart but I always compare them to you.  

"Cos when I'm with him, I am thinking of you."

My Candy Heart

The day I heard the news I slumped to my knees. The suitcases were already patched and they were saying their final good byes.

Then they're were gone.

Walking through the park is the hardest. Tears leak when I recall memories we made. The twin swing set we always played on? I couldn't bear to see it. Our favourite sweets shop? Dead in my eyes.

I remember us swinging together in sync at dusk. The sky was bright red with splashes of orange and a setting sun. The wind blowing through our hair as we threw our heads back laughing.

I remember when you grabbed my hand for the first time. Your face a bright red and your palm a little sweaty but our fingers fit perfectly linked together. 

Our first kiss was on our special swing set when you suddenly toppled on top of me and we collided. My heart was already long taken by him and when I think about it... He still has it.

It seems like yesterday when we swore we would always be together.... But he's gone. And just like that my heart shattered like the candy heart beneath my shoe...

Our sweet love...

Why bother?

Some say true love is when the two love each other no matter what happens. But no relationship is that perfect. 

They say that the two should never hide anything from each other. But humans are known to hide their faults.  

They say they love each other but the emotion are empty behind their eyes. 

Why would you lie? Why would you bother? 

Hiding your heart from the world would make things more complicated. So why continue?

Falling in love with memories

Falling in love with memories 

Who knew someone could change so easily? One mistake and he closed his heart off. 

Our smiles? Gone with the wind. 

My hand clutching emptiness. 

Our spot is forever missing one person, my eyes searching for the one who has torn my heart into two and left on the first flight. 

He was long gone yet she believed. She trusted too easily and the cost was too great. 

Even now I still think about him. Pretending that he was still beside me as I fell asleep. Whispering sweet words into my ear. 

The boy I once knew glances at me with cold glares, he hooks up with new girls daily as if telling me, "I'm done playing prince."

The sweet guy I knew slipped through my fingers and into the void. 

He now has a new girl, one of my best friends actually. 

It's tearing me apart, that the things you used to do to me, you're doing to her. Wrap my arms around me when I'm cold, tuck my hair behind my ear when the wind blows. 

But when no ones looking he is sending me more of those looks. 

Challenging me. 

Taunting me. 

But at night he returns, climbs into bed beside me gently. He brushes the hair off my face and takes my hand. And he whispers into my ear, "Good night princess". 

It's not too bad falling in love with memories...

Bonjour ^~^

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